Since I last updated. Was reading through my diary of sorts, and saw that my life was just running around in circles for the past 4 years or so. I would recognize things that are hindering me, cry about it, and allow it to continue hindering me. When will I bounce past these obstacles?
I think that a life lived empty of all else but God is a life worth living. A life that is about what God wants for this world and it's inhabitants. Sometimes I'm afraid of asking for that life, not because I don't want it, but because I'm afraid of not being able to handle it, or missing out on some of the "finer" points of life. But as I continually fill my life with all it's pleasures, I find that it's less and less filling and it's taking more away from me than I am from it.
Am I growing? Am I being shaped? I don't want to be a self-righteous prick that just judges other people and put myself on a pedestal. Nor do I want to wallow in my self-pity anymore. In the end, I just want to want nothing. Because how can you lose anything when you got nothing to lose?
I need to stop coveting.
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